21 May 2010
Woohoo for Hulu!
Grey's Anatomy is my show. (Thank you very much Jess for keeping me up all Thursday night before Black Friday and getting me addicted to this show a few years ago.) It's had its ups and downs and last night was apparently a huge up. I've been reading about it everywhere. Like a great neighbor, I've mooched off someone's wifi and attempted to watch it on abc.com. But oh no, the buffer isn't near fast enough for me and I don't want to watch it in 3 second clips. ENTER HULU. I don't know why I ever bothered trying to watch shows off the network website. Hulu is my hero.
18 May 2010
More Ultrasound Pics
I tell you what. Being pregnant in Kentucky with a civilian doctor is waaaaay better than having an Army doctor. Or two or three or eight! I feel like I'm some sort of special important person that gets preferential treatment every time I go in for an appointment. The doctors and nurses don't treat me like they've got a schedule to stick to. Or poke and prod and send me on my way. Ultrasounds are a plenty and they don't whisk right through them. The technicians tell me things, explain the images, and actually entertain requests. Everyone has been so gracious about Ryan being deployed and giving me extra ultrasound pics so that I can keep him up to date on the pregnancy. We've been so spoiled here and I'm already missing my special treatment for when we leave for Georgia. If we DID have her here. The cesarean is scheduled for the 21st. That means Elayna is the 19th. Ryan is the 20th. And Cora would be the 21st. (We know how anal I am about order. It just doesn't get more perfect!) Enjoy the pictures.
FYI, her head is smushed between the placenta and uterine wall. And she looks crooked because she's shrugging. The two knobs at the bottom are her knees.
Our little girl is just one ounce shy of a pound, according to the measurements. And I've gained 5 pounds to date. (I'm gonna start swimming again this week. Get back into a routine now that we're not going back out to WA until July. That's right. We're not flying out this Wednesday anymore. We'll just wait until Ryan comes home, spend a few weeks with him, and then fly out ahead of him driving to KY. Woohoo! He's almost home!)
Scholarship Opportunity
I received this email from my FRG leader. Thought it might be useful for someone out there.
"Please help to spread the word about the scholarship outlined below for surviving children of military personnel who died in the line of duty since Sept. 11, 2001:
WASHINGTON (April 30, 2010) - The children of military personnel who died in the line of duty since Sept. 11, 2001 can apply for an educational scholarship similar to the new Post-9/11 GI Bill. Benefits are retroactive to Aug. 1, 2009.
The scholarship, which is administered by the Department of Veterans Affairs, are named after Marine Gunnery Sergeant John David Fry, 28, a Texas native who died in Iraq in 2006 while disarming an explosive. He was survived by three young children.
"The Fry scholarship represents this nation's solemn commitment to care for children whose mothers and fathers paid the ultimate price for our country," said Secretary of Veterans Affairs Eric K. Shinseki.
VA begins accepting applications for the Fry scholarship on May 1, 2010.
For more information or assistance applying, call toll-free 1-888-GIBILL-1 (1-888-442-4551), or visit the VA GI Bill Website at www.gibill.va.gov.
VA estimates nearly 1,500 children will receive benefits under the Fry scholarship program in 2010. Recipients generally have 15 years to use their benefits, beginning on their 18th birthdays.
Eligible children attending institutions of higher learning may receive payments to cover their tuition and fees up to the highest amounts charged to public, in-state students at undergraduate institutions in each state. A monthly housing allowance and stipend for books and supplies are also paid under this program.
VA will begin paying benefits under the Fry scholarships on Aug. 1, 2010. Eligible participants may receive benefits retroactively to August 1, 2009, the same day the Post-9/11 GI Bill took effect. Eligible children may be married. Recipients are entitled to 36 months of benefits at the 100 percent level.
When dependents also serve in the military, the reserves or are Veterans in their own right, eligible for education benefits under the Montgomery GI Bill for Active Duty, the Montgomery GI Bill for Selected Reserves or the Reserve Educational Assistance Program (REAP), then they would relinquish their eligibility under those programs to receive benefits under a Fry scholarship."
"Please help to spread the word about the scholarship outlined below for surviving children of military personnel who died in the line of duty since Sept. 11, 2001:
WASHINGTON (April 30, 2010) - The children of military personnel who died in the line of duty since Sept. 11, 2001 can apply for an educational scholarship similar to the new Post-9/11 GI Bill. Benefits are retroactive to Aug. 1, 2009.
The scholarship, which is administered by the Department of Veterans Affairs, are named after Marine Gunnery Sergeant John David Fry, 28, a Texas native who died in Iraq in 2006 while disarming an explosive. He was survived by three young children.
"The Fry scholarship represents this nation's solemn commitment to care for children whose mothers and fathers paid the ultimate price for our country," said Secretary of Veterans Affairs Eric K. Shinseki.
VA begins accepting applications for the Fry scholarship on May 1, 2010.
For more information or assistance applying, call toll-free 1-888-GIBILL-1 (1-888-442-4551), or visit the VA GI Bill Website at www.gibill.va.gov.
VA estimates nearly 1,500 children will receive benefits under the Fry scholarship program in 2010. Recipients generally have 15 years to use their benefits, beginning on their 18th birthdays.
Eligible children attending institutions of higher learning may receive payments to cover their tuition and fees up to the highest amounts charged to public, in-state students at undergraduate institutions in each state. A monthly housing allowance and stipend for books and supplies are also paid under this program.
VA will begin paying benefits under the Fry scholarships on Aug. 1, 2010. Eligible participants may receive benefits retroactively to August 1, 2009, the same day the Post-9/11 GI Bill took effect. Eligible children may be married. Recipients are entitled to 36 months of benefits at the 100 percent level.
When dependents also serve in the military, the reserves or are Veterans in their own right, eligible for education benefits under the Montgomery GI Bill for Active Duty, the Montgomery GI Bill for Selected Reserves or the Reserve Educational Assistance Program (REAP), then they would relinquish their eligibility under those programs to receive benefits under a Fry scholarship."
16 May 2010
Going. Going. Gone.
I'm not sure if this is really my child. She LOVES anything and everything girlie. Hair bows, shoes, lotion, lipstick, necklaces, bracelets, purses, etc etc. Here she is, making out with her loot-o-clothes from a local children's consignment.
For as much as this girlie likes to shop, she was pretty worn out one afternoon. She fell asleep as soon as I put her in her car seat.
Too cool for words.
For as much as this girlie likes to shop, she was pretty worn out one afternoon. She fell asleep as soon as I put her in her car seat.
15 May 2010
Tummm T Tum Tum
Phase 2: Even less energy and nausea
Phase 3: No energy and lots of heartburn
Phase 4: Heartburn and FattyMcFatFat
Phase 5: Just call me Michelin
Phase 6: End is near, Mama Time.
I'm still stuck on Phase 3. For me, pregnancy gets less and less fun. Well, it's never fun to begin with. Even makes me want to hurt those women who enjoy being with child. Right now, I've got so much heartburn I could get into a fire-breathing competition with a dragon.
On the plus side, I can feel Cora moving around like a crazy spaz. She's just as active if not more than Elayna was in utero.
13 May 2010
Miss Marky Mark
So maybe she's not in a band. But she IS covered in marker marks. A friend loaned me his hard drive of 150 gigs of music. That's right you heard me. I've copied like 8000 songs and in my hast to go through and organize them, I let Elayna cut loose with markers and paper.
Paper? Who needs paper. She's got skin. She's covered in it. And here's the proof.
Paper? Who needs paper. She's got skin. She's covered in it. And here's the proof.
Mati Tag
This is the tag I've created for Mati's crate when we fly back out to WA. I've blurred out the sensitive info, but trust me it's there. We've only flown with our dogs once and there aren't many templates out there for pet travel safety tags. I don't want her to end up in Canada or lost or something, so I want to be as precise as possible. I already ordered her a collar tag to be sure she was clearly labeled just in case something should happen.
*** By the way. If you're considering ordering a pet ID tag online, DO NOT USE Terrificpets.com. I ordered tags for Mati & Juju just before we left WA and they're "engraving" was actually "laser printed" on a stainless steel tag, read the small font. Needless to say, half the tag was unreadable out of the envelope due to tape wiping off half the info as it was stuck to my receipt. They didn't last 6 months. Mati's tag was completely illegible by Christmas because her rabies tag rubbed the remaining ink right off. When I called customer service, they told me they won't replace it and I'd have to order a new set. Bogus. So I did a little research this time and decided to order from Boomerangtags.com. CHECK THEM OUT. They too will double-engrave (put info on both sides of the tag) and cost me only $2 more per tag than stupid Terrificpets. PLUS, they guarantee their product for the lifetime of your pet. I ordered a stainless steel tag for Mati and a plastic one for Juju. (Plastics are only guaranteed 2 years, but will be replaced with stainless steel if broken. But let me tell you, I seriously doubt anything could hurt this thing. It's about the size and thickness of a nickel.) So that was my soap box for today. I should've taken pics of the before and after tags. You'd be amazed at the difference in quality. I am.***
Anyway, for those of you who frequently check pets as baggage or cargo, are there any modifications you would make to this tag? Oh, I am going to put on there that she's microchipped.
And then of course there'll be the big "Live Animal, This End Up" stickers on her crate as well. I made my own, but it very closely resembles this:
*** By the way. If you're considering ordering a pet ID tag online, DO NOT USE Terrificpets.com. I ordered tags for Mati & Juju just before we left WA and they're "engraving" was actually "laser printed" on a stainless steel tag, read the small font. Needless to say, half the tag was unreadable out of the envelope due to tape wiping off half the info as it was stuck to my receipt. They didn't last 6 months. Mati's tag was completely illegible by Christmas because her rabies tag rubbed the remaining ink right off. When I called customer service, they told me they won't replace it and I'd have to order a new set. Bogus. So I did a little research this time and decided to order from Boomerangtags.com. CHECK THEM OUT. They too will double-engrave (put info on both sides of the tag) and cost me only $2 more per tag than stupid Terrificpets. PLUS, they guarantee their product for the lifetime of your pet. I ordered a stainless steel tag for Mati and a plastic one for Juju. (Plastics are only guaranteed 2 years, but will be replaced with stainless steel if broken. But let me tell you, I seriously doubt anything could hurt this thing. It's about the size and thickness of a nickel.) So that was my soap box for today. I should've taken pics of the before and after tags. You'd be amazed at the difference in quality. I am.***
Anyway, for those of you who frequently check pets as baggage or cargo, are there any modifications you would make to this tag? Oh, I am going to put on there that she's microchipped.
And then of course there'll be the big "Live Animal, This End Up" stickers on her crate as well. I made my own, but it very closely resembles this:
Picture Post
Here are some pics from the weekend in Marissa. We had a great time visiting with Great Grandma and Papa.
More proof that Mati's nearly Mati again, aside from the head tilt.
More proof that Mati's nearly Mati again, aside from the head tilt.
12 May 2010
Check Check, 123
This evening as I'm getting ready for worship, I notice my toddler/shadow bustling around the room mimicking me as I speed around trying to get us dressed and to the church on time. She's running from one end of the room to the other, grabbing and moving things as she flies around.
When she gets a spanking, she continues to whack herself after I'm done. For the record, apparently my child isn't phased by spankings at all. My hand's sore afterward but she's just fine, smiling and wondering why we stopped. So we'll initiate Plan B: Time Out.
Mati goes almost everywhere with us. I tell her to "stay" whenever we get out of the jeep. Elayna also sticks her hand out and tells Mati to "stay." And recently, she's also started telling Mati "aus," the command for "leave it, let go." (Okay, so not only can my kid spell, she knows her left from right, and can speak another language. Not really, but just go with it.)
Are you catching my drift? I'm gonna really have to start checking myself to be more aware of the behavior message I'm sending Elayna. I don't want her to think our theme song is Alabama's "I'm in a Hurry" or that spankings are fun or that-- well... she is the boss of the dog. That one's okay. My point is that I need to really watch my own behavior. I want the quality of my parenting and example to improve the character of my child.
Do you parents (eeooch, oochie, itchies) have advice about this? I know language is a biggie. I don't think we have much of a problem there. Is there anything else you've have to modify or stop or really think about?
When she gets a spanking, she continues to whack herself after I'm done. For the record, apparently my child isn't phased by spankings at all. My hand's sore afterward but she's just fine, smiling and wondering why we stopped. So we'll initiate Plan B: Time Out.
Mati goes almost everywhere with us. I tell her to "stay" whenever we get out of the jeep. Elayna also sticks her hand out and tells Mati to "stay." And recently, she's also started telling Mati "aus," the command for "leave it, let go." (Okay, so not only can my kid spell, she knows her left from right, and can speak another language. Not really, but just go with it.)
Are you catching my drift? I'm gonna really have to start checking myself to be more aware of the behavior message I'm sending Elayna. I don't want her to think our theme song is Alabama's "I'm in a Hurry" or that spankings are fun or that-- well... she is the boss of the dog. That one's okay. My point is that I need to really watch my own behavior. I want the quality of my parenting and example to improve the character of my child.
Do you parents (eeooch, oochie, itchies) have advice about this? I know language is a biggie. I don't think we have much of a problem there. Is there anything else you've have to modify or stop or really think about?
Stupid Neighbor Dogs
Some advice please!
I'm close to my breaking point of waltzing my not-so-happy hiney across the street at this lovely hour of 11:45pm to the neighbors' house and demanding that they pen up their dogs. Not only do they chase the jeep (and every other vehicle) down the road, they knock over the trash cans, dragging all sorts of stuff across the property. And they bark at all hours of the night, right outside Elayna's room. So right now, I'm about a half second from pulling out a bb gun and shooting these unruly mangy mutts every time I see them on our lawn, purely based on the principle that they're wreaking havoc and have no discipline. It's not like I want to hurt them, but I'd love to scare them enough to stay away. I've already anywho.com-ed the neighbors to give them a piece of my mind (yes this late, b/c I'm THIS angry) but they're unlisted. I've also thought about macing the dogs that chase us while we're driving, but realize that just isn't practical or possible. They speed alongside the jeep and then dart back and forth in front of it. I've slammed my brakes and crawled down the road too many times to count. Seriously, one day they will be hit and I won't feel that bad about it. I've only got another week to deal with it so I suppose I could just suck it up, but at this point I'm very impatient and fed up with people who don't take care of their stuff.
How do you handle menaces?
I'm close to my breaking point of waltzing my not-so-happy hiney across the street at this lovely hour of 11:45pm to the neighbors' house and demanding that they pen up their dogs. Not only do they chase the jeep (and every other vehicle) down the road, they knock over the trash cans, dragging all sorts of stuff across the property. And they bark at all hours of the night, right outside Elayna's room. So right now, I'm about a half second from pulling out a bb gun and shooting these unruly mangy mutts every time I see them on our lawn, purely based on the principle that they're wreaking havoc and have no discipline. It's not like I want to hurt them, but I'd love to scare them enough to stay away. I've already anywho.com-ed the neighbors to give them a piece of my mind (yes this late, b/c I'm THIS angry) but they're unlisted. I've also thought about macing the dogs that chase us while we're driving, but realize that just isn't practical or possible. They speed alongside the jeep and then dart back and forth in front of it. I've slammed my brakes and crawled down the road too many times to count. Seriously, one day they will be hit and I won't feel that bad about it. I've only got another week to deal with it so I suppose I could just suck it up, but at this point I'm very impatient and fed up with people who don't take care of their stuff.
How do you handle menaces?
06 May 2010
Halfway There!
20 weeks! Today marks the half way point in pregnancy. YES! At least there's a light at the end of the tunnel. HOWEVER, this tunnel also leads to a very hot and humid Fort Benning, Georgia. That's where I will be spending weeks 32 through 40. Am I thrilled? No way Jose.
I've been feeling Cora kick for two months now. Which is crazy considering that I still wasn't feeling Elayna at this point in pregnancy. And laying on my stomach is more than uncomfortable now. (Woe to me, the belly sleeper.) The nausea has mostly subsided, unless I let myself get hungry. Needless to say, I'm constantly eating, possibly more than Elayna. People are starting to comment on the belly. Yes there is a baby in there, but it's mostly me b/c it hurts to hold it in anymore. There! I said it.
I've been feeling Cora kick for two months now. Which is crazy considering that I still wasn't feeling Elayna at this point in pregnancy. And laying on my stomach is more than uncomfortable now. (Woe to me, the belly sleeper.) The nausea has mostly subsided, unless I let myself get hungry. Needless to say, I'm constantly eating, possibly more than Elayna. People are starting to comment on the belly. Yes there is a baby in there, but it's mostly me b/c it hurts to hold it in anymore. There! I said it.
05 May 2010
Christian & Gospel
Lately, I've been in an oober-praise-y mood. So. If you have any Christian, gospel, praise, anything songs you can burn me, let me know and I'll send you a disk. Muchos gracias.
On another note, we're heading to IL to spend some time with my grandparents this weekend. Elayna's Great-Grandma has a mother-daughter tea Friday night. It should be fun. She'll really get to show EV off. And don't grandma's just love to brag?
Also, things seem to be coming together in regards to housing at Fort Benning, GA. Keep those fingers crossed that we don't have as many hiccups with Benning as we did with Lewis. Please, for my sanity, please!
I'll post pics soon. There's not much time before we leave for WA and we're trying to organize and pack as much as possible. Ah, the Army life. Have patience.
On another note, we're heading to IL to spend some time with my grandparents this weekend. Elayna's Great-Grandma has a mother-daughter tea Friday night. It should be fun. She'll really get to show EV off. And don't grandma's just love to brag?
Also, things seem to be coming together in regards to housing at Fort Benning, GA. Keep those fingers crossed that we don't have as many hiccups with Benning as we did with Lewis. Please, for my sanity, please!
I'll post pics soon. There's not much time before we leave for WA and we're trying to organize and pack as much as possible. Ah, the Army life. Have patience.
03 May 2010
Little Miss Snores A Lot
Poor girl. She woke up this morning with a nasty, barking cough. Then it returned at nap time. And now that she's in bed for the night, it's back. It took her over an hour to fall asleep because she just couldn't breathe. I've been pumping her little nostrils with saline and hoping for the best. (It's not like I can ask her to gargle saltwater to clear out all that yuck in her throat.) I went to check on her and this is what I find.
And to make it even better: A video:
(OKAY it's 12:30am, scratch the video, it's taking too long and I WANT TO SLEEP. Maybe the internet will be faster tomorrow and you can see this poor baby snoring.)
***It's taking forever to load pics and videos, so I've gone off to do other things. Meanwhile, Elayna has woken up multiple times because she can't breathe or because her throat hurts. She's got a barking cough that makes my throat hurt to just hear her. I hope it's just allergies. We've had some pretty crazy weather lately. Anyway, after the numerous times I consoled her back to sleep, this last wake-up I went in and pulled her out of bed so she could lay on me while I sat upright, hoping that would help her breathe a little easier. Once I thought she was asleep, I got up and went into the living room to watch some tv, with her still laying on me. That lasted about 10 minutes before she was asking to go back to bed. What kid passes up tv for bed? Apparently mine. Poor girl got down, marched herself straight back to the bedroom, waited patiently for me to put her back in the crib, and laid back down and tried to fall asleep. It's already been a long night. I hope she gets some sleep. I hope I get some sleep.
On a different note, Mati's herself again! More so than I can handle! We go to the vet tomorrow for a follow up and I'm praying he gives her permission to resume her normal schedule. Then maybe I can run the heck out of her and get some peace and quiet. This is something I'm worrying about when we get back to WA... where on earth can she run? There are a few back roads that I know of behind Madigan. But it's not like I can predict if anyone will be driving down them. Not to mention Fort Lewis has a leash law. I take her down side country roads now, the type where there's only one house at the very end of the road and traffic is slim to none. There's just no where I can legally do that on post. Or even legally do that in the state. The only solution I can think of is the dog park at Steilacoom, but then I run the risk of her being stupid around children (she's good with small ones- babies and toddlers-- not with children, especially if they have no restraint and are super psycho crazy). We're working on it. I have a vest I can put on her with big bold "DO NOT PET" velcro patches. Any ideas?
ALSO, we've booked our flights back out to WA. We fly out of Nashville early on the 19th this month and will be at Fort Lewis by noon that day. I'm hoping we can catch an early housing appointment so we might be able to have the storage container delivered that same day. If it works out perfectly, we won't have to stay at the lodge and start unpacking the container that day and the next. Randy's flying out to help. Again, this is very wishful thinking and everything has to fall into perfect place at the right time to pull that plan off. So, we'll probably be staying at the lodge a night.
That means, Grandma, we're coming to visit. I know yall just returned from your Caribbean cruise. Hope you lucky ducks had fun. I plan to call you tomorrow (well, I guess today) to schedule a good time for us to come out and stay a few nights.
Well keep Elayna in your prayers and hope she gets over this nastiness. For both of our sakes.
WE NEED SLEEP!
And to make it even better: A video:
(OKAY it's 12:30am, scratch the video, it's taking too long and I WANT TO SLEEP. Maybe the internet will be faster tomorrow and you can see this poor baby snoring.)
***It's taking forever to load pics and videos, so I've gone off to do other things. Meanwhile, Elayna has woken up multiple times because she can't breathe or because her throat hurts. She's got a barking cough that makes my throat hurt to just hear her. I hope it's just allergies. We've had some pretty crazy weather lately. Anyway, after the numerous times I consoled her back to sleep, this last wake-up I went in and pulled her out of bed so she could lay on me while I sat upright, hoping that would help her breathe a little easier. Once I thought she was asleep, I got up and went into the living room to watch some tv, with her still laying on me. That lasted about 10 minutes before she was asking to go back to bed. What kid passes up tv for bed? Apparently mine. Poor girl got down, marched herself straight back to the bedroom, waited patiently for me to put her back in the crib, and laid back down and tried to fall asleep. It's already been a long night. I hope she gets some sleep. I hope I get some sleep.
On a different note, Mati's herself again! More so than I can handle! We go to the vet tomorrow for a follow up and I'm praying he gives her permission to resume her normal schedule. Then maybe I can run the heck out of her and get some peace and quiet. This is something I'm worrying about when we get back to WA... where on earth can she run? There are a few back roads that I know of behind Madigan. But it's not like I can predict if anyone will be driving down them. Not to mention Fort Lewis has a leash law. I take her down side country roads now, the type where there's only one house at the very end of the road and traffic is slim to none. There's just no where I can legally do that on post. Or even legally do that in the state. The only solution I can think of is the dog park at Steilacoom, but then I run the risk of her being stupid around children (she's good with small ones- babies and toddlers-- not with children, especially if they have no restraint and are super psycho crazy). We're working on it. I have a vest I can put on her with big bold "DO NOT PET" velcro patches. Any ideas?
ALSO, we've booked our flights back out to WA. We fly out of Nashville early on the 19th this month and will be at Fort Lewis by noon that day. I'm hoping we can catch an early housing appointment so we might be able to have the storage container delivered that same day. If it works out perfectly, we won't have to stay at the lodge and start unpacking the container that day and the next. Randy's flying out to help. Again, this is very wishful thinking and everything has to fall into perfect place at the right time to pull that plan off. So, we'll probably be staying at the lodge a night.
That means, Grandma, we're coming to visit. I know yall just returned from your Caribbean cruise. Hope you lucky ducks had fun. I plan to call you tomorrow (well, I guess today) to schedule a good time for us to come out and stay a few nights.
Well keep Elayna in your prayers and hope she gets over this nastiness. For both of our sakes.
WE NEED SLEEP!
02 May 2010
April Showers...
Wait. It's May. Why is it still showering? Let's just make it clear: There's thunder and lightning, a lot of it. This isn't what I call showering, it more like the apocalypse. Look at weather.com. That picture really is worth a thousand words.
Did you notice the timestamp? I can't sleep. It feels and sounds like the thunder is right out my (er, Elayna's) window. And when I close my eyes, I see a million flashes a minute. I grew up with thunderstorms, but I guess living in the Northwest has spoiled me. NO, I repeat, NO thunder and lightning out there. I think in the two years we lived there I heard thunder maybe once or twice... and I can't even be certain about that because I lived on an Army post.
But the last two nights have made all my childhood nightmares come back. (Especially with this new Freddy movie coming out.) I admit storms scare me. All that cracking thunder and bright flashes make me realize just how puny I am. It's scary. Very. So like the grown, mature adult woman I am, I've snuck into my 1 1/2 year old daughter's room and am bunking in the guest bed.
And the "Weenie Award" goes to... ME. Applause.
She's not even the least bit phased. I mean, come on. Even the dog has her ears perked up and is begging me to let her up on the bed. (She's quite content sleeping on the floor next to me, except for tonight.) I'm curled up in the fetal position, trying to calm myself. I can feel my heart racing. But my toddler is perfectly fine. Awake and singing to herself b/c my sneaky sneakiness has woken her up. I'm trying to smile and pat her back and make like it's all okay and to go back to sleep. But on the inside, I'm freakin out man.
Hope your night was better than mine.
Did you notice the timestamp? I can't sleep. It feels and sounds like the thunder is right out my (er, Elayna's) window. And when I close my eyes, I see a million flashes a minute. I grew up with thunderstorms, but I guess living in the Northwest has spoiled me. NO, I repeat, NO thunder and lightning out there. I think in the two years we lived there I heard thunder maybe once or twice... and I can't even be certain about that because I lived on an Army post.
But the last two nights have made all my childhood nightmares come back. (Especially with this new Freddy movie coming out.) I admit storms scare me. All that cracking thunder and bright flashes make me realize just how puny I am. It's scary. Very. So like the grown, mature adult woman I am, I've snuck into my 1 1/2 year old daughter's room and am bunking in the guest bed.
And the "Weenie Award" goes to... ME. Applause.
She's not even the least bit phased. I mean, come on. Even the dog has her ears perked up and is begging me to let her up on the bed. (She's quite content sleeping on the floor next to me, except for tonight.) I'm curled up in the fetal position, trying to calm myself. I can feel my heart racing. But my toddler is perfectly fine. Awake and singing to herself b/c my sneaky sneakiness has woken her up. I'm trying to smile and pat her back and make like it's all okay and to go back to sleep. But on the inside, I'm freakin out man.
Hope your night was better than mine.
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